Bitter Day... ;(

Nothing bad happen, it's just that nothing good turn out to happen too. I did my presentation today and were told that I did not follow the text book for Yerkes-Dodson Law but actually i did. it's just that i added few stuff more.. huh, then during CHET presentation i didn't check my grammar properly.. i felt really disappointed but it's really my fault that i didn't contribute much to my group. tonight, i really have to finish my sctl and hopefully my script. finger-crossed! pray for me kay?!

The Best Damn Thing

I just got myself ONE MILLION by Paco Rabanne!! The bottle is SOOOOOOO SEXXXY!! OMG!!! just love it every single way! i have a few issues right now with me, but hopefully i'll nail every one of it n then i'll go to my Nay-Sayers and tell them "I TOLD YOU SO!!!"

I haven't got my lap top back. So much for asus saying that they have the best service! I NEED MY LAP TOP!! i'm so going to bf to them if they didnt have it done by next week.

I smashed my phone the other day coz when i called my brother, mother and my house, NO ONE PICKED UP! so i got irritated and smashed that phone! now the bad thing is i just spent few hundred on my perfume. i cant be spending more right now and i need a phone... lucky me i have my other phone which has another number. but its ok. my plan is to get the new nokia N97, or N97 mini, or E71 or, E72. Ha!! have to save my money first!

Recently i got fed up with sharon coz she backed off the last minute, but then i think its a good thing coz it was a booster for me to think for a script that would shit on her face literally! and i manage to think of a script that can work like that! i'm soo genius! Can't wait to start the production!

Dramatic DRAMA!!

I am suppose to be the director for this year annual drama in my college. Surprising enough, I have to do the script also since Sharon back off the very last minute. Whatever was i thinking asking help from that nasty person. I regret asking help from her. If i didnt ask her any help, there would be less pressure.

I realize that living in a non-ideal world we just have so many obstacles to reach our dreams. Dont even get me started with my Nay-Sayers who relentlessly negate very single thing that i do to try make wonders. I dont have to gulp all the negativity or DARK ENERGY as i refer it to sharon but what i really need to do is to really focus on the good things that has left and magnify it with all the strength that has left.

During my reflection i just realize that there is someone in my house that really detest me, the idea of me, and definitely my way of living life. Our mentor asked us whether we would want to join the drama or not, and he said NO! What a Nay-Sayer. All this negetivity would make a person crumble but i would want to prove all my sceptics that they are WRONG!

Despite my situation right now(behing schedule like REALLY2 behind schedule and i dont have my laptop with me cz there's a prob) i would want to make things turn out to be awesome. I want to write a DAMN GOOD SCRIPT and direct a DAMN GOOD DRAMA. Let my glory be a rotten egg smashed into the faces of my sceptics!!!!

THE INCREDIBLE DAY!!!!

Today is just WONDERFUL!!!!!! i didnt really prepare myself properly for class.. as u know, i have chronic tonsillitis n just came back from a tonsillectomy. I had to do a presentation today as my housemates thinks that this act might bring me down!(haha, bitterbetter actually is for me to be positive!) okok, stop with accusing people. i had to do a presentation that i wasnt prepared for and I HAD COMPLIMENTS OF MYLIFE!!!!!!!!

"that was the best class i had in behavioral science so far! thank you, u made my day" harin, an indian boy from padang told me after class.

few moments after that i had a shower of compliments!!!!! wow!!! a few of the students told me that my presentation was lively and the best so far they said they have ever encountered. yay in my heart! i heart y'all!!!!!!!! this positivity shud be channeled in a good way so that it continues! so what i u guys shud do is be positive on EVERYTHING(everyshit was my initial idea) and this energy might just hit you to a swing of euphoria of success and joy!

i love every love that the world has to offer me! bye!

Being Better

I did what I said yesterday, I make myself caramel pudding! Yummy but at the same time it is not that yummy. I really need to learn how to cook properly. I think I should start to write my own cook book. I know how to cook lots and lots of food but I just never really do it properly. I think I should document everything. Hurm, lets make it after I finish my 1st year. Then I'll have 2 months of my own to write myself a cookbook! My caramel pudding didn't turn out to be a good one because I was drowsy all the time I was doing it. I have so much small(small to others but it is a big accomplishment to me!) goals that I would want to accomplish right now! Let me list them now:-

• get an average of 3.5 for my cGPA
• learn to speak French fluently
• Have my own recipe book with a minimum of 100 recipes!
• Be in my ideal weight by May 2010!
• Have a GREAT drama that everyone will be talking about!
  

I think for the time being this is good already. I'll add more according to what I want to achieve latter on in my life!

Can't Eat!!!

It is so sad that i can't eat in this condition. My life is so pathetic right now. I got good food in the hospital, as you can see, that is a grilled fish that I have to physically chew it without my mouth! Easier said, I have to mash it before i can gulp it! Yucks, but that is life! Have to endure it no matter what! The weirdest thing that I have done is that I mixed an apple juice that I bought with the marble butter cake that the hospital gave me! It is in the cup as you can see. Euuwwish but that is food for me! Can't really say that I have the worst condition on Earth but definitely not the best yet.

My Drowsy Life..

I woke up this morning to had breakfast, then a few pills and straight away I feel that grogginess and went to sleep again. I woke up at 1420 to have my lunch an a few pills, now groggy again. Huh, I told my mum that I want to make a caramel pudding today but it looks like I can't even get up from bed. Will do it afterwards in the evening. LOLS!

I really wanna write right now...

yurp, i really do but i'm so drowsy.. will do it tomorrow. goodnight readers, if there are any of you reading it..

In the Hospital

I did write a bout this the other day but my mum suddenly switch off the internet. Too bad, then my post didn't appear on the internet. I had a tonsillectomy yesterday at 0900 and haven't spoken much. i started speaking this morning to my little brother who slept with me at the hospital. I always indulge in food whenever i had any problem, but this time food is the problem. swallowing food was so hard that i can barely eat. It was so tough. The irony that happen is that even my doctor encourage me to eat. Well, atleast I can start losing a few pounds like this. Hahahaha. When i as resting in my room i watches this documentary from Micheal Moore. He was doing this comparison about this health benifits that people are getting in America, France, UK and Cuba. I'm so suprise that America had a lot of corruption in their health organization. The minister refuse to give free health care for his own personal gain. That is so mean. It is not like malaysia is any better, but most of the youngsters look up towards the Americans too much. In the actual fact is that they are not that good(or better) than us. We need to be determined to enchance the quality of the people in our country in order to upgrade the standard of our lifestyle. The suprising fact is that in France, the goverment provide ANY MOTHER with any amount of infants a personal assistant for FREE! This people then would do house chores even the laundries. Now that IS amazing. just hope that one day this can happen in my country. Adios for now. My antibiotic's effect is starting to kick. I'm drowsy right now...

The Beginning

Well, it's the first. Can't really start with another extravaganza topic but nothing to write. I recently watched "Julie and Julia" and feel so inspired to write myself a blog. For those who are just like me, probably you should watch that thing too. To cut things short, I want this blog to be the platform for me to focus on my life, my goals. Not just another place for me to bitch about people. I want to share my goals and vision to the world. Let them know my strategy, and let them correct me if I'm wrong. This place is a place for me to focus on being better and to generate positivity from bitterness. This place is The Bitter Better.